So Sad

So sad, from my precious clown,
it seems that life has turned upside down.
These feelings you have romantically said,
are feelings twirling around in my head.
This weekend alone was our weekend together
I sat in solitude and imagined forever.
I pictured myself in your part of town
gave you a ring and you came around.
We sat and we talked like we usually do
and sometimes sat silent, just me and you.
I imagined the warmth of your hand in mine
and one single kiss, stolen in time.
I smile to myself even tho my heart aches
And thank God for Matthew and the love that he makes.